Tangible. That is how using the Manuscript iPad application makes me feel about writing my first novel. It has become tangible. I have character descriptions, chapters, research tools and a book graphic I open that has my name and manuscript title on. I have a real relationship with what I am creating, it feels real. I spent last night writing instead of playing Candy Crush Saga. I still sat on the couch, with my partner after the end of the day. Everyone fed, kids in bed, adults winding down. And it felt good.
I finally gave myself permission to just write. I have done as much outlining as I felt I needed to and so I am doing the fun part. Writing. I have given myself permission to not have a word count. I don’t have to write 2000 words a day. Writing is not my full-time job. I have a full-time job that I love and pays the bills better than most writing jobs do. But I still have this urge to write. It’s an urge I have had since childhood.
Turns out giving myself permission to write at my own pace, in my own time is all I needed to do. Trying to live up to other peoples goals and expectations gave me writers block. I wanted to approach writing as a professional does, not like it is a hobby, and it didn’t feel like I could take pride in what I wrote if it didn’t meet some professional standard. Bah Humbug. From what I have read Stieg Larsson wrote his books at night for fun. He thought about them, loved them. I want that experience. No I don’t think that will bring me the same level of success. I do expect that I will produce the best manuscript I am capable of. This is not a race, it is fulfilling a passion.